What is your soul hungry for?
Hello all, I have been hesitant to share what God is teaching me because of shame, but there is no shame in the name of Jesus. There is freedom at the cross, there is forgiveness and growth when we become aware of our sin and confess that to God and move forward, and that’s what I’m doing. I’m moving forward. In each of us, I believe we have a crevasse of longings and hunger’s in our hearts that we must give up to God and allow him to meet us there to fill that empty space. For me, that longing and that unsatisfiable hunger was placed in two things. The first hunger being food, when I got diagnosed with a disease my life felt broken and shattered. Even before the disease came into my life, my teenage experience looked different, to begin with, due to all the difficulties of a jaw misalignment. It felt as though this disease left a permanent stamp on my new day to day life filling me with impenetrable hopelessness. It disrupted my social life even more than beforehand, the things I was able to do or longed to do were mostly stolen from me except on some rare occasions. “Unreliable” painted my goals and pre-mediated plans because my time now had to be altered for rest. And that was so difficult, and still is so difficult. Instead of running to God to fulfill me with joy, peace, and comfort. I ran to food, it tastes good and it did the trick of distracting or numbing the reality of this painful new normal. I would secretly slip away to feed a deep painful hunger within my heart.. From the outside, it may seem harmless, but I created an addiction, a dependence on food that built up barriers between my relationship with God. I also mentioned people. I run to people to fulfill me, I run to them for the comforting and the patching of my soul, I run to them for security. And each time I ran to these dependencies faster and faster with an exhausted unsatisfied, unmet soul. Each time I left empty or left feeling worse. In all honesty, it felt easier to run away from the aches of my heart than to face them head on and pray about it and work through it. I slowly became comfortable in these dependencies. Thankfully God has been revealing to me the depth of my longings and emptiness and the root causes of my longings. He is creating an unsteadiness in me as he continues to unveil the reality of my wanderings. He is slowly awakening my focus on him. He is reminding me that I need to run to him and him alone to fulfill the broken cavities of my heart. I am learning that God needs to be my all in all. I am learning that my hunger needs to be for him, and not in unsatisfiable dependencies that I molded out of a place of pain and darkness, I am just now awakened and starting to recognizing this in my life by his grace. That isn’t the end of the story though, I didn’t wake up one morning and leave these dependencies behind. Quite the contrary actually, even as I started to become aware of these truths, I also began to feel shame and guilt. I felt shameful that I continued to feed these pangs of hunger and the longings of my soul. I felt shameful that I was so comfortable clinging to them. And I had no intention of letting go of control so quickly. When I invited shame and guilt into the picture and tossed Gods truth to the side that’s when I dug a deeper line between me and God. God reminded me that I am not a slave to these hunger’s, he reminded me that guilt and shame are left behind at the cross and that I can walk into his glorious freedom laced with love and truth. I don’t need to continue living as a slave to these hunger’s and longings of my soul. The victory is already won! when I ask for help and for deliverance, my God comes running fiercely towards my direction with a helping hand of guidance. Freedom is found at the foot of the cross when I choose to lay down my hunger’s and seek the kingdom first. As I begin to seek him and his truth and allow his words to invade those cavities, my soul will begin to experience the fullness and the sweetness of Christ. This is difficult, I created a habit, a dependence, an addiction. I allowed the aches of my soul to nurse themselves upon unsatisfiable hungers and longings, which in the end has left me unmeasurably empty. Thankfully God isn’t finished with you or me yet. Friend...let go of any guilt or shame you have surrounding your personal longings and hunger’s, and walk into freedom. Maybe you don’t struggle with nursing the aches of your soul with food or people, but possibly you tend to them with another culprit. Be honest with yourself, once honesty enters than you can begin to walk forward with a renewed gaze upon Christ and his truths that reign over your life. If you read this blog in its entirety thank you, it is not easy sharing the ugliness of my heart, nor is it always easy to give up the hungers of your soul. But it is necessary that God is first in your life, it is necessary that he is your all in all, and it is vital that he is the one who sits upon the throne of your heart. Below I shared some scriptures that speak the truth of this topic, join me in letting God be our all in all. God bless you, Mikayla Kent P.S there is a song below for some extra encouragement. & don't forget about the verses!! (: Scandal of Grace- Hillsong~ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LASyD0ASRfI Scripture ❤️ Galatians 5:1 “ It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery.” Romans 8:1-4 “Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you free from the law of sin and death. For what the law was powerless to do because it was weakened by the flesh, God did by sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh to be a sin offering. And so he condemned sin in the flesh, in order that the righteous requirement of the law might be fully met in us, who do not live according to the flesh but according to the Spirit.” Psalm 63:1 “ You, God, are my God, earnestly I seek you; I thirst for you, my whole being longs for you, in a dry and parched land where there is no water.” Ephesians 1:7 “In him, we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God’s grace”.
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