Strength is something I try to search for constantly. As many know I have a misalignment to my jaw that causes terrible pain, for the past three days I have had headaches not stop. I am so weak, so tired I also continually have plenty of anxious thoughts wondering if the doctors will ever find a fix. I wanna give people the polite response when they come up to me and ask how I am I generally say "oh I'm good! the jaw should be better soon" but in reality on most days I'm fighting tears to come streaming down my face cause of the constant pain. In all honesty when I am at home I am not the most welcoming person to be around I have developed an intense impatient attitude, I lose my temper easily and don't treat others how they should be treated. I may be in pain but I have no right to lash out at my family I am trying to grow in that area. I am not good at all & at the moment I am not in a good place health wise but my God is still good, and his timing is all in all perfect. He is letting me go through this for a reason and if that means I have to deal with this for another year or longer I am going to trust and ask him to provide me strength well heck it isn't gonna be easy most days I would rather stick to the pain pills and a bitter attitude than lay all my burdens humbly at his feet but I will get not because of anything in me but all because of God. Instead of begging him impateintly to cease the pain I will praise him even in the midst of suffering; as the verse Matthew 11:28 states -"Come to me all of you who are weary & I carry heavy burdens & I will give you rest" anyone else who is struggling in the same area as in impatience or suffering or in finding strength I hope you will cling to this verse
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AuthorI'm just a 17 year old girl, who has a passion for Jesus and longs to encourage and connect with other people through the shifting seasons of life, and the lessons learned through them. Archives
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