Hello all, in my past few blogs I’ve shared with you the “what if’s & “why’s” that have plagued my life. There are seasons of life where questions and doubt are the only form of communication that we share with God, yet their are also sweet seasons of time where we finally see the connection between those plaguing “why’s” and Gods plan.
I am going to be honest, this past school semester I was so terrified walking into a new school due to the current situation of my unreliable disease. From my obstructed view I saw a body and a mind that was unable to function and complete all the lofty expectations that the school system has for an average student. And throughout this semester I have asked so many questions with an underlying tone of impatient anger that was present behind the words I would whisper out to God in moments of doubt. Some of these frustrating remarks are - “why would you put me in this school if I am just going to fail” — “why do you have me here” and most of all “why did I have to be held back so many semesters, which now leads me down a life path that is so much slower than the rest of my friends.” Each of those questions have been thrown God's way. I believe that in those moments I was depending on my own limited sight. I was basing my frustrations off of the small piece of understanding that I had a tight grasp on. And In those moments where I would get frustrated and impatient with God, his peaceful and assuring voice would bring me back to a stillness in him. God continually would remind me of his truths in my life. He reminded me that his timing is far more perfect than mine. He also reminded me that his plans for my life are far better than I could imagine for myself. Lastly, He reminded me of his faithfulness time and time again, even in the presence of hundreds of questions. God doesn’t expect you or me to have it all together nor does he expect us to have all the answers regarding his plan for our lives or even simply the plans of a school semester. He asks you and me to be still, and to be patient in his perfect timing; knowing that He is who he says He is meaning that the plans for our life are perfect and good. God doesn’t want me to depend on and find security in my flighty emotions or my slim fragment of understanding, he wants me to fully rely on him, to fully rely on my faith in who He is and to walk into the unknown with my handful of questions, even when I don’t understand. This semester God has shown himself faithful once again, even through the midst of unreliable health he gave me the strength and the resources I needed to do what he had called me to. He called me to this new school, and He met me with his faithfulness and I just completed my first semester! I am so so thrilled. It was not an easy semester, it stretched me and exhausted me but God met me with his strength, his peace and his sweet faithfulness. Friends do not be discouraged if you are in the moment of boundless questions and confusion, I was there just weeks ago. There is nothing shameful about not understanding, but surrender that hungry desire to understand. We simply cannot comprehend all that God has for us. He calls us to be still, and wait patiently. Honestly “waiting” and “being still” is a lot harder to do than it seems. I understand! I am not sharing this testimony to lift myself up and display a disposition of “having it all together & “having all the answers” quite the contrary actually, I had no fragment of an idea of how God would work this semester, I am right there with you. Don’t let your view hindered by flighty emotions limit God, and do not let your understanding of your own mere human strength limit the work that God can complete through you! All glory goes to God, it is he who enabled me to complete this first semester and it is also him who taught me and walked me through his faithfulness in order for me to come to this understanding! My friend just be faithful to where he has called to you right now, be obedient by taking every little step that contains plenty of unknowns and surrender that eagerness to understand the reason behind this path and walk with him, having complete assurance and confidence in the character of your God alone. If you read this blog in its entirety, thank you. I hope that this testimony encouraged you and reminded you that God is faithful, he is aware of every step of faith you are taking right now. I hope that you can also join me in surrendering that craving of understanding the complexity of God’s plans and run into the waves of unknown with confidence in God's character. Once again all glory to God! God bless you, 💗 Mikayla Kent Below are some verses that remind me of God's faithfulness to me and his plan for my. Also I am adding a link to a song that has been very encouraging to me recently. (: Proverbs 3:5-6 “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your way acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.” Psalm 119:105 “Your word is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path.” Lnk to the song- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O5oLZeSnf3c
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