“Break my heart for what breaks yours”
Hello all, it’s been quite some time since I’ve posted a blog. In all honesty the beginning months of this new year have been a whirlwind, in recent weeks I’ve been learning and discovering by God's grace that some areas of my life need much repair, and attention. In all honesty, I haven’t posted because I didn’t believe that my words were aligning with my actions, therefore I didn’t feel peace about sharing more blogs. If I’m being even more transparent, I would confess that In recent months, I have neglected spending time with God in prayer and studying the Bible. I have not been intentional because I had been swept away in a storm of self-pity and discontentment, regarding my current circumstances. The result of that neglect, had led to a gradual numbness in my heart regarding my own sin, the corruption of this world and my desperation for Jesus. I lost sight of my God given purpose as a follower of Christ which is to find my pleasure in Him and the things that bring Him pleasure. Slowly as I reflect back on these past few months, I see that my gaze had been shifted to self-seeking rather than seeking Christ. I grew angry because I was not able to partake in everyday pleasures. I felt that life had left me behind and that God had no intention with my disease and the burdens it places upon me. In that misplaced frustration, I had no intention of opening my Bible. I painted a picture of God, laced with my expectations and desires and when he did not mirror my manufactured image, I was unsatisfied due to my proud entitlement of the things I desired. I began to see behaviors within myself that did not glorify God and simply lacked love. That was my first realization that something needed to change. Slowly, God has been unveiling the depth of my need for him, he has been lowering the walls of pride and gracefully rebuilding those walls upon a foundation of truth. One night, I prayed that God would revive my heart and break my heart for what breaks His. He did just that, as I began reading His word. He began to shift my gaze and He created a heartache concerning not only the sin and the corruption of this world but the stirring corruption within my own heart. I believe that when our eyes are focused on Christ, we are not so easily swayed by the noisy culture of “me, me, me” but when we are tender and conscious of the depth of sin we are more eager to walk on a path that glorifies God and pushes forward his kingdom cause. When I am standing upon a foundation of truth and begin to grasp fragments of how immensely I need Jesus, it encourages me to run swiftly to Jesus.I needed that wake up call. I needed God's truth to fracture and tear away my pride and entitlement and remind me of the depth of my sin and why I am here.By God’s mercy I am here and able to share this personal testimony with each of you today. 1st Peter 2:9 is a clear picture of the “kingdoms cause” and what my focus should be planted on daily. 1 Peter 2:9 - “But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for God's own possession, so that you may proclaim the excellencies of Him who has called you out of darkness into His marvelous light..” I want to encourage you to take a step back and ask yourself what picture of God you're painting? Is it infiltrated with expectations and desires of your own or wrapped in beautiful colors of truth and love. I also want to challenge you to pray and ask God to break your heart for what breaks His heart. Maybe you have a dull numbness in the same way I did that needs to be addressed. I am so thankful that God has began tearing down walls of pride and entitlement within my heart, and I pray that he will do the same for anyone reading who may resonate with the words shared today. Thank you for reading. God bless you, Mikayla Kent. P.S... I inserted some scripture and a song. (: HillsongWorship-Hosanna: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hnMevXQutyE Scripture: Psalm 119:18 “Open my eyes, that I may behold wondrous things out of your law.” Ephesians 1:18 “Having the eyes of your hearts enlightened, that you may know what is the hope to which he has called you, what are the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints,”. 2nd Corinthians 1:18: “As we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.” Hosanna - Hillsong Worship Hosanna - Hillsong Worship
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